As with so many things where you sit and wait, the start of the marathon seemed to come suddenly. One minute I was walking around trying to stay warm and the next everyone was moving off of the grass onto the road and walking towards the start. I wasn’t sure where I was going, just that the mass of humanity was moving towards the Verrazano Bridge.
I had stuffed my jacket, ski cap, and warm-up pants into my bag and dropped it off at the UPS truck for post-race pickup. I still had my sweatshirt on and at 10:00 a.m., ten minutes before the start, I pulled it off and threw it along the side of the road with the thousands of other garments. This sweatshirt had an IBM/Vanstar logo on it and it was a favorite of mine. But I figured losing it here was a noble end, and presumably all this clothing gets picked up and donated to charity.
With so many runners you’re far from the starting line. I couldn’t hear any pre-race announcements or the national anthem. I only knew the race was about to start when a U.S. Coast Guard plane buzzed the crowd. I tried to remain calm as I stood there waiting for the race and my heart rate indicated I was doing a fairly good job at this—around 50% of MHR. This was much better than when I ran Houston and the anxiety of starting the race had me above 80%. Then a huge cheer came through the crowd and I knew the race had started. Within a few seconds the crowd began to shuffle forward.
As we moved towards the starting line I took a quick personal inventory: body—ok, legs—ok, energy—good, nerves—good. I felt like this was going to go well.
Coming through the starting line and seeing the Verrazano Bridge up ahead was a great experience, especially with Bruce Springsteen’s Born to Run blasting from the speakers surrounding the starting area. Spectators and runners were cheering and you couldn’t help but get goose bumps as you started up the bridge.
I wanted to take my time on the bridge and take a walk break if my legs felt tight. After sitting around for almost four hours on the cold ground I didn’t want to push myself while being tight only to pay for it later in the race. With the crowd of runners it was hard to run anything faster than a 10:00 mile and I think the slow start helped me—I didn’t need to slow to a walk to stretch out my legs.
I don’t know how many times I heard the “When you get to the bridge, take the upper deck. Otherwise you’ll get sprayed from the runners above you peeing off the side” advice. Someone told me in San Antonio, Sister told me she heard this from someone, and then she heard some girls discussing it in the restroom of the race expo. It was the only advice I got—take the top deck. Well, I didn’t have a choice—the corral I was in must was assigned a certain route and it happened to be the top deck. I never saw any area where you could pick an upper or lower deck. Regardless, I think I only saw five guys peeing off the bridge and with the concrete wall that’s on both sides, you’ve got to be decently tall to get it over this wall. I think the “Upper Deck” advice is an urban myth (but fun to repeat).
As we came off the bridge and into Brooklyn we already had two miles completed. Mile 1 took me 10:25 and mile 2 was 8:29—fast for me but this was coming down the bridge. My legs felt good, no shin splint pain and no pain from that spot above my left ankle. There were spectators the entire way from this point forward at a minimum of 2 people deep. For the rest of the race you’re running by spectators on both sides cheering and screaming. I noticed a guy in a bushy mustache and a Yankees cap holding up a sign that said “At this point finishing is your only fucking option”. It was funny and inspiring. I’m not sure why, just seemed big hearted that this guy who looked like he’d live in Brooklyn would be holding up that sign to all the runners coming down the bridge.
My plan was to average 9:08 splits and come in just under 4 hours. Everyone told me that New York is a tough race for amateurs to finish within their time goal but I thought that if I could do 9:30 or so on the first half the second half would thin out and I could make it up. It was crowded though. I was passing people and people were passing me. A few times I’d accidentally run right in-between two people but when I’d apologize they’d always be great about it. Everyone seemed to be enjoying themselves at this point.
The course drink was Gatorade Endurance Formula which as twice the sodium as the regular Gatorade. I always get abdominal cramps from this so I knew there’d be none for me. The other drink was Poland water. My plan was to drink the 20oz. of Accelerade I was carrying for the first 10 miles or so and supplement with Clif Shots every 5-6 miles. The first water/drink station was mile 3 (I think) and it was well organized—available on both sides of the street and spread out enough that it wasn’t too disruptive for the runners who didn’t stop or slow down to drink. I kept going, knowing that I had my Accelerade if I was thirsty.
Miles 3 and 4 were 9:22 and 9:15. This was just about where I wanted to be (a little faster, actually) and I felt good with my pace considering the crowds. At mile 5 I took a Clif Shot with some water. Mile 5 was 9:01, another good split. The weather and crowds were really keeping me motivated. The spectators were incredible—stacked on the sidewalk screaming, garage bands playing really bad and loud music, people hanging out windows, there was no letup in their enthusiasm.
Mile 6 and 7, 9:10 and 8:51. My splits were right where I needed them to be for a sub-four, I had made up the time lost in the slow first mile and I was now trying to pace myself, trying to stay around 9:08. Mile 8 was 9:02 and mile 9 came in at 10:03. I’m not sure what happened at this mile, I may have slowed down to drink some water at the aid station. Things were still going well. I wasn’t drinking my Accelerade, however. Usually I’m down with 20oz. by 12 miles and this wasn’t going to happen today. The cooler weather seemed to have dampened my thirst and the Accelerade was a bit warm since I had mixed it with tap water earlier that morning. Accelerade can be thick and if it’s not ice cold it’s not that quenching. I knew I was going to have to increase my intake of it because I didn’t think the Clif Shots with water would be enough to get me through 4 hours of running.
Mile 10 was 9:01. This is where the race began to get a little tougher. You’ve been running for 90 minutes and you’ve got 16 more miles. Still, though, my body was holding out and I felt good about my prospects for sub-four. It was at this time when my IT band on the outside of my left knee began to complain. I’d had this happen on a couple long runs, once so bad I had to take a walk break every mile or so. It wasn’t bad, but I knew that it hurting this early in the run meant it would be bothering me. I moved to the right side of the road, so my left leg was on the shorter strike. I typically run on the left (against traffic) and I had read that cambered roads can induce IT band issues on the leg that’s making the longer strike. Mile 11 came in at 9:24, a bit slower than my other miles but still within range of where I needed to be.
Mile 12 took 10:30. My IT band was really hurting and I knew I was in trouble. I took a Clif Shot while I slowed to a walk to try and stretch my left leg. I wasn’t really sure what I was doing, but the knee felt better when I took exaggerated steps with high knee lifts. It seemed to provide some relief and when I resumed running I had a high knee lift for my left leg.
At this point I decided that I’d run through the pain and not try to accommodate it other than the knee lift which seemed to be helping. I’d been training for this marathon for 5 months and I could take weeks and months off when it was done to recover so better to run and finish with a decent time than to nurse it and save it for some other race. What other race? Finish this one and be done with it.
Mile 13 was 9:29, a big improvement over the previous mile and my time at the halfway mark was somewhere around 2:00:27. I figured I could make up the 27 seconds on the second half because while it was still crowded it seemed to be opening up a bit.
Mile 14 was 9:25. These multiple miles above 9:08 didn’t have me feeling good about my time given that I was supposed to be making up 27 seconds and any second above 9:09 was putting me further into the red. Still, my IT band seemed to be getting better somehow, the pain was getting less intense, and I thought I was still within striking distance of sub-four.
Things started to get tough at this point. The sun had gone behind the clouds, the crowds were still there but this portion of the run was more garages and warehouses, and I was getting into that zone where you’re tired, cold, hungry and depressed that you still have 11 more miles.
Mile 15 was 9:40 and my spirits were flagging. You’re in Queens and you can see the Queensborough Bridge (a.k.a. 59th Street bridge) up ahead but you’re wondering when you’re going to get to it. It’s this bridge that takes you back into Manhattan. You still have 10 miles to go once you cross this bridge but at least you’re in Manhattan. Crossing that bridge would me a big milestone and I wanted to get it behind me.
The bridge crossing itself was the lowest point for me, mentally. It’s a long slow climb to the center of the bridge and there’s a covered portion in the center that’s unlit. It was dark enough in there that you’re bumping into other runners and you can’t see your footing very well—you’re tired and running blind—a bad combination. Still, I had heard coming off of the bridge into Manhattan’s 1st Avenue is a real high plus I knew my family would be somewhere in that crowd cheering me on so you just keeping running, trying to get over the bridge and onto the rest of the race.
As you come off the bridge you loop around 270 degrees (I think) onto 1st where you head north. The crowds here and all along 1st Avenue are incredible—10 people deep and cheering. Wifey had told me the family would be on the left side of the street so I was looking for them. I wanted to see them but I wasn’t too worked up about it—I knew they were out there somewhere and it was enough to keep me going.
Still though, I was thrilled to see my Mom, Dad, Sister, and Wifey with a PATRICK sign. I waved to them as I ran down the street, yelling hello and picking up my pace. You can’t help but run faster when you know someone is watching me. 1st Avenue was a definite high point and probably my favorite part of the race. But 1st Avenue is long—really long, and you can see runners stretched out in front of you all the way to the top of Manhattan. There’s something about running on the same street for mile and miles, like you’re not getting anywhere, and it was obvious that I’d be on 1st for a long time.
But it was at this point that I knew I could do a sub-four. My ITB pain had completely vanished, my split times were okay, and I still felt like I could pick up the pace. I’m going to do it, I thought. I’m going to beat my one and only marathon time at New York.
Mile 16 came in at a slow 9:54. I wasn’t too concerned, the Queensborough Bridge had been a tough, slow haul and my pace was in the 10:00/mile on the uphill portion of the bridge. I focused on picking up the pace to sub-9:08’s for the remainder of the race. Knowing I could do sub-four kept me going but it was also a bit of a curse because I had no room for error and I would have to push to make it. It made enjoying the rest of the race difficult because I was focusing on my times and not the scenery or the moment.
Mile 17 and 18 came in at 9:04 and 9:00. I took another Clif Shot around mile 18 with some water. I was hungry for something salty and the gel wasn’t it. Miles 19 and 20 were 9:10 and 9:22. You head into the Bronx for a short mile or so and then come back across into Manhattan for the last few miles into Central Park. As I came back into Manhattan from the Bronx there was a big crowd and they had the theme from Rocky blasting. I kept thinking to keep cool and keep pushing because I was going to make it if I could last a bit longer. I was tired but I felt strong. Mile 21 was 9:04. I knew I had some time to make up and I was trying to figure out how much. It was going to be close but I thought I would make it right under the wire.
The street started to narrow because there were so many spectators standing off the curb. My legs were tired, my ankles were sore, but it was just regular running pain as opposed to any injury. Keep up the pace, you’ll make it, I thought. The street was getting more crowded with runners and I could feel I was running a bit low on energy so I decided to take some Gatorade. I might have stomach trouble but I could make it the last 5 miles with stomach issues if it meant my energy levels would maintain.
Mile 22 was 9:12, a bit slower than what I wanted but still keeping me within range. Four miles to go, push yourself here and you can sleep and eat forever, I thought.
I was trying to pick up my pace but I couldn’t seem to do it. At first it was really strange because you’re not accustomed to telling your body to do something only to have it not happen. I was aiming for a sub-9 mile but I could feel myself slowing down—quickly.
Around 22.8 miles I fell apart. Within a span of a couple hundred yards I went from running to jogging to shuffling. I had no energy—I was spent and I could tell it wasn’t coming back anytime soon. I had no gas in the tank and my body didn’t want to run much less run faster. I took another cup of Gatorade and tried to suck down a big swig of Accelerade (I sill had plenty) but I knew it was no use. I was now fighting to finish but I still held out hope that my energy levels would return and I could finish strong though not under 4 hours.
But as my energy levels continued to sag I only got slower. I desperately wanted to walk. Runners around me were beginning to sense the finish and were getting energized by this and picking up the pace while I was struggling to not fall out.
Mile 24 said it all—10:24. Just 2.2 miles to go and I was barely functional. I knew if I stopped to walk I wouldn’t be able to begin running so I kept shuffling along. My family was somewhere up ahead and I wanted to look somewhat composed as I passed them. It was all I could do to keep going.
Mile 25 was 11:28. Somewhere I passed my family and managed a feeble wave but I just wanted to get to the finish line. We were in Central Park at this point and there are some gentle hills that seemed like mountains. The crowds were intense this close to the finish line and you could hear the commotion and music at Columbus Circle, just a couple hundred yards from the finish line. But there was no making me go faster—I’d finish the marathon and consider myself lucky.
Mile 26 was 11:10. The last 500 yards or so are marked off every 100 yards and I counted them down desperate to get to the finish. Even the last 385 yards (.2 miles) was tough. I could see the finish line and don’t even remember what the clock said above it. I just wanted to finish and be done.
Finally, I crossed the line. I wasn’t so much tired as I was exhausted. The difference is that I was completely wiped out, starving, cold, and light-headed. I stumbled through the finish area, got my Finisher’s medal and reflective blanket, and stood for in a mass of runners shuffling to the baggage pickup and family reunion area.